The Opening Wide

Every impression lives in a room, and the womb is room one. That’s where the subconscious begins, back when the embryo didn’t think but felt. Impressions waved upon the embryo, upon the embryo of you.

You sensed back then, back when all the senses formed and when the coalescent impressions took shape and all those memories collected in that room, the womb where it all began.

In the womb we sensed near weightlessness and full weightlessness in sleep, in amnion. The warmth of another person’s body bore through to bear ourselves just for a little while, just until we could float on the merits of our own senses, in the beginning, in room one with all our senses, or feelings, as witness to the birth.

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The world becomes the second room, and that becomes the conscious mind, in force of gravity at its fullest feel.

These two rooms divide into smaller and smaller rooms within the big two. Fractalline.

The birth canal mimics the vagus nerve, connecting the two, or vice versa.

The trunk between roots and branches, the connection between subconscious and conscious, between womb and world. 

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Room one is the womb. Room two is the room in which we were born. “What happened in that room?”

To understand room one we must go to room two. We visit different rooms, different contexts, to bring memories from the subconscious up to the conscious mind. Ultimately, we realize we must go to the place we were born.

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The subconscious began in the womb, and the conscious began in the room in which we were born. Generally, the closest we can get to the subconscious is to go to our birth room or into its likeness. If we were born in a hospital room, then we go to a hospital room. If we were born in the bathtub of someone’s home, then we go to a bathtub of someone's home. There’s a reason why you like being in certain rooms and why you feel driven to spend your time there. There’s a reason why you avoid certain rooms and why you’d rather pass your time elsewhere. The truths of the subconscious mind have more to do with beauty than with the darkness that hides in the light. 

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To understand the subconscious, to enter the subconscious, to gain access to every personal impression, to bring oneself to the apex of human understanding and thus to gain the ability to communicate within humanity in the most profound and unencumbered way – that is the purpose.

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We’re looking for connection and we know the sure connection of having been in the womb, connected, tethered to our mother.

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The subconscious is the placental soil and also the gut – the roots of a person. The stem or the trunk is a transitional phase, like the birth canal or the dream state between deep sleep and waking. The branches and leaves are the conscious mind interacting with the atmosphere, breathing in and breathing out, giving visible sign of communication. The roots, on the other hand, give hidden sign of communication. The point is – the roots communicate, therefore the gut communicates. We love people mind to mind, and we find them gut to gut.

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Mind to mind via sleep. Bacteria speak from gut to branches to roots across the earth to other roots to branches – and, yes, to other guts, to other minds.

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The trees collect the sun and make food by day, and by night they collect our impulses when the trees also dream. All the microbial life in our gut, the neurons firing – they emit and the leaves receive and they send word down to the roots and soil where bacterial thoughts do travel. At night the trees are dreaming, collecting, from the collective subconscious of life.

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I’m telling you, at night, the roots and the branches shake hands. 

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The umbilical into the belly was the first connection, corded. 

The first organ to develop was the heart, the pump for bringing in and taking out.

The microbiome develops in the canal, not in the sac. At that time the body is primed to become cordless when cord gets cut.

Bacteria form a chain, a cordless cord unwinding.

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The stilled lake or the flowing stream - pick one, for you’re one or the other, and the flora and fauna already know it.

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The roots or stem are always the passageway from one world to another. 

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In the first couple’s time the first subconscious room matched the first conscious room, because paradise was both womb and room. The first conceived child and every child thereafter were to have the same experience, but it didn’t happen that way, because of revolution, because of eviction.

So the first child born was not born into a womb-like room. Rather, they were born into an unpleasant room, atop thistles and thorns.

Then began the great conflict between conscious and subconscious. Thereafter started the conscious wobble without synchronicity with the subconscious mind. And therein lay the pain of our future. 

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But JEHOVAH is the rootstock from which came the placental soil, from which came the roots of life. 

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Looking up is for a reminder, looking down is for reflection. Looking up is to imitate the branches, looking down is to imitate the roots. 

Looking this way or that way and you’re getting to JEHOVAH. Looking this way or that way and you’re reaching for the source.

Whether you get there through the air or through the ground you’re still getting there, and there you belong, with the water that washed you, and with the fire that stilled the part of you wanted unseen-